Mental Access to MTKuszek

Mental Access to MTKuszek
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Sunday, October 24, 2010

10/24/10 Conversation with my Mind

the 165th day...

normally, i fancy myself as a really creative guy, and often i can't stop my mind from thinking when i need something for a convention or friends or any other thing where i need something creative.

this past week, after my last convention for the season, i sent my mind on vacation, not needing to be creative at the moment. my mind, however has chosen to be a bit vocal during this process, and i share with you the conversations i have had with it.

in no part does this mean i'm schizophrenic.

Mind: Hey, you know that BashCon is coming up in February. I heard that there are several people that are trying to get this Con up to better standards. heck, that Ohio Kimono lady was promoting the crap out of it.

MK: i know what your trying to do, it won't work. i want two weeks of no creativity. i think about events later.

Mind: your friends will be there. that means Qags and Clash of the Kaiju... Did you see those card boxes that Brian made? Nice, But we cam make our own. here's what i'm thinking...

MK: Hey! Go back to your vacation! no thinky thinky.

Mind: you know that GenCon is coming up...

MK: yeah, next August!!! Get back to the beach and drink your omega-3 enriched smoothies!!

Mind: Just saying that there are some people who want you there. you have to leave your mark on that con too. you can be truly epic in your events. I've got something brewing over here, it's going to be completely bananas. plus you can be a part of the Qags invitational.

MK: Chill! no need to be premature about things!

Mind: i know you have notes for a game up in your closet, i've seen them. just pull them down. it's you next Dread event. you don't even have to think too much. it's almost done you know...

MK: My God, you're really trying to get me to do another project again aren't you? the wife will get mad.

Mind: three words: Somali Pirate Game. Here's another for Kaiju: ZomZilla

Mk: Your completely sick, you know that? look, today i'm going to the pumpkin patch with the family. we're going to get a few pumpkins. if you don't shut up, i'm just going to put a smiley face on my pumpkin and nothing else. nothing elaborate, and i know it'll kill you not to be creative.

Mind: ...

MK: Well?

Mind: ...I'll be good...


Friday, October 22, 2010

10/22/10 reflections on CotC

the 163rd day...

i've been attending this convention in Hudson, Ohio that happens around the middle of October called Con on the Cob for the past two years. it ends my yearly convention schedule, and i have to say it's becoming one of my most favorite cons of the year.

this year i had three events lined up to run; a game for Dread called "I've got a Bloodstained Ticket", our awesome Clash of the Kaiju tabletop monster game, and my signature game Qags-in-a-Bag.

the first game to kick off the con was my Dread game, and was really the one i was most concerned about. i spent weeks working on the particulars of this scenario, and overall i thought the game went well, but could be better. about a 7 out of 10, but it'll get better with repeated runs.

Clash was our Saturday game, and after requesting a high traffic area, we had our table full. it was probably the most success with drawing players in, and with us handing out t-shirts people ate it up.

sunday, though pressed for time, i ran my qags in a bag game. again i pride myself on having no duplicates after three years of games. did a high epic fantasy game, which again was weird and lacking in combat. i need to be more formulaic in my efforts this coming year.

so after a job well done, i put my mind on the shelf, giving it a week of at least to rest and not be creative. it's been nice, but occasionally there is a twinge of creativity that goes on that i have to stop and tell my brain to chill and relax.

more to come soon.


Wednesday, October 13, 2010

10/13/10 I'm on the right track...

The 154th day...

i have been spending most of my waking day letting my mind bounce through idea and scenario in an effort to finish probably some of the best writing i've done in a long time. i guess when you have an idea stuck in your head for years, every concept and theory for that specific idea pours out like water.

last night, i officially got to the halfway point of the writing, and i had thrown in an antagonist from the beginning that was supposed to be evil and slightly disturbing, with that tension building as the story progressed. last night, after putting down the pen, i sat there, looked at the words in front of me, and stated aloud:

"Damn, this guy's a dick!"

i'm on the right track for sure now.

see you soon


Monday, October 11, 2010

10/11/10 procrastination

the 152nd day

i have a list of crap to do before Friday, when i leave for Con on the Cob with some friends and run my first game on that night. i am so looking forward to this convention, giving me a much needed break from working weekends, but i have so much to do before then. luckily, yesterday was very productive, but i am still working on notes for my first event on Friday. it is mentally draining to be this creative and organized. just have to get through it i guess.

should go back to it instead of blogging. off i go.


Monday, October 4, 2010

10/04/10 breaking the silence...again

the 145th day...

its been 15 days since my last post, and i'm not real happy about it. just haven't had the time as life has caught up to me in a bad way. yesterday sucked for several reasons, most of then unexpected projects such as a clogged drain that i attacked for an hour and a half with no results. i was blindsided at every point in which i had the possibility of time to do what i need to do for the weekend following next (CotC if you know what that is) and i feel the time running out.

so now the plans stands at this for the remainder of the day, at least until it changes, which it probably will.

i'm going to finish this food that i'm eating as i type this (leftover lasagna if you must know)

then, i'm going to attack the kitchen and finish the dishes that i couldn't do last night because of the clogged sink.

then, hopefully i will have a clear enough mind to relax a bit and get a few more notes done for my CotC trip coming up soon. if my mind is still a bit wonky and stressed, i will have to jump on my game console to unwind a bit, but i'd rather not in this timeframe.

after that, kid comes home from school and we all get together for family time. which is probably the best part of the day. love my family thats for sure.

see you all soon.