Mental Access to MTKuszek

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Sunday, September 19, 2010

09/19/10 It be a Better Day, Ye See...

it be the 130th day...y'arrgh!

so i be thinkin' a bit of late; me noggin' filled with...things...

it be a better day, so long as i stay as true as the north star to meself, y'arrgh!

there won't be no scallywags to bring me down, no sir. they'll walk the plank if they feel so fool-hearty to tangle with this captain!

(Y' case ye be wonderin' if me lost me marbles, fear not, for it be INTERNATIONAL TALK LIKE A PIRATE DAY!!!)


Cap'n MK the Swarthy

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

09/15/10 Frustrated and Angered Beyond Reason

the 126th day...

i'm done!

the past few days have been just a joke, specifically at my job, and now it finally crossed over into my personal life! i am seething with rage, and i seriously can't take it anymore. so now i'm getting hit with $hit on both sides and frankly i no longer care.

today my daughter, the oldest one missed the bus on account of her locker being stuck. now i understand this, but since i only have one vehicle at the moment, i had to call my dad. he became upset at the fact that he had to come get us to get the kid, and proceeded to berate me on the way to picking up my daughter. he reminded me of the bad mistakes i've made in my life and that i still need to mature.

so, after that bull$hit, i'm really happy that i'm the only male left in the kuszek family who could pass on the family name, cause frankly i'm real sure we have no right to exist on this planet as a bloodline anymore. we're too ill tempered, and we haven't learned from our mistakes.

i know my mom is ill, and has been so for a while now. i know my parents have done some great things for me in the past, and i have been thankful. i doubt i'll be asking for any favors from them, even as simple as a ride to a nearby school, for a long time.

am i really this damaged? have i lived under the pretense that we were never dysfunctional but really were? christ, why do i feel like an eight year old again?


Tuesday, September 14, 2010

09/14/10 MK's new "i dont give a $#!+" meter

the 125th day...

last night at work my meter hit at least an eight on the i just don't give a $#!+ meter.

i think i'm getting sick of people in general and just don't want to deal with their difficulties in their lives. i already have too much on my plate right now and i am dealing with my own problems. the last thing i need is to have someone's crap on my plate as well.

long story short; i think it's time for a change for me.


Friday, September 10, 2010

09/10/10 letting off some steam

the 121st day

this weekend i get to head down south for one of the two scheduled vacation weekends since i've started to work new hours. i hope to have some great fum with some good friends and kick back a little. ready for some much needed time off, and hopefully the world slows down a bit. game on brothers and sisters.


Sunday, September 5, 2010

09/05/10 Really? At 3:00 am?

the 116th day...

so, i'm back from adjusting work schedules and other assorted time consuming activities. so far things have been going well, and it's started to pay off a bit. :)

so why am i not smiling?

its because my idiot next door neighbors like to throw parties at 3am on the weekends.
i can hear the music go on, and loud talking outside my window, if its open. in fact i think there was some yelling going on that woke my from my sleep.

this is not the first time they've done this, and i personally think it might be the daughter who is doing this, since i think the mother works at night.

i'm feeling like i wrote this before.

oh well. back the the grind