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Monday, November 29, 2010

11/29/10 not feeling too hot...

the 193rd day...

been ill the past few days. i thought i got over it and was free and clear, but i've been sidelined with one of my lack of caffeine headaches. nausea and a slight migraine kill me, but i know life is going to get harder from here on out. holidays and work are going to add to the stress levels and i know time is going to dwindle as fast as it can.

i'm so not ready for this.


Monday, November 22, 2010

11/22/10 Mental Thought

the 186th day...

it is absolutely frightening what my mind comes up with when i get creative. it seems like its not even me, but rather I'm asking another person about something, and they throw an idea back at me, and we have a conversation about the idea and collaborate on a finalized idea. it's just plain freakish.


Tuesday, November 16, 2010

11/16/2010 Gamer Vision Math

the 181st day...

Some Vid-Gamer geek math for you: i currently have 76 PS3 discs in my possession, out of those, 28 are the ones that I'm currently playing, have intent to replay, going to play soon, or other family members are playing. that's 37% of my overall library , which mean that the other 48 games (63%) have been beaten, completed, used for all they're worth and are hanging around for people to borrow or to replay if the nostalgia hits me. to call me a consumer is one thing, to call me a devourer of software is more fitting. here's to console software season kicking off today!!!

sad part is, I've already added to this number for Christmas, and about five more are going to follow soon.


Tuesday, November 9, 2010

11/09/10 Disturbed Dreams Still Haunt Me

the 181st day...

last night, i had a dream about being led to the gallows for my execution. my family and friends were there, thankfully not my children, and it was in a small church that looked colonial in nature. there was a small church service, denoting my last hour of life. i remember it vividly, and the moment i woke up was when i realized my children would miss me, even though i felt no fear of my inevitable hanging itself.

i woke up from the dream, fighting through the veil of sleep with my heart pounding, and realized it was just a dream. still, being confronted with one's mortality, whether real or imagined, is a very sobering experience.

perhaps it is time to do some things that i've be putting off for a few years now.

see you soon


Thursday, November 4, 2010

11/04/10 never enough time...

the 176th day

a little frustrated with the way thing are going with work, and I'm really hoping my outlook on life isn't changing because I'm around the wrong people all the time or that my age is turning into a cranky old man.

but i will persevere. it's what I'm good at.

next few weeks are going to be key to getting myself back to some normalcy, and i hope i can spend some quality time with some people that i haven;t seen in forever. at least I'm in good health (knock on wood).

see you all soon.