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Tuesday, June 12, 2012

6-12-2012 Clarity

I've had enough. I've analyzed over and over the current situation that I'm in, and find it to be unhealthy.

after long consideration, i have chosen to exercise my options and explore other possibilities for employment.

what could change my frame of mind in such a short period of time?

i had a discussion with a few of my co-workers, cutting through the BS about everything, and getting to the very root of how we see our place of employment. just like every job there are serious issues that need to be addressed.

they preach job security, yet i don't feel secure in my job, especially now since there is a point system for each infraction you have on a forklift, and with the kick in the ass of 12 hour days at a moment's notice, fatigue will set in, and accident will happen.

i don't mind working the standard hours, but there is overtime...a lot of overtime...and not just during the weekends either (again the 12 hour shifts) and there's no way to sustain financial stability and a family life.

i refuse to have my family become strangers, and to have to inconvenience them is not a thing i want to do. the clash between work and family has never been something that i tolerate. and to tolerate it now just because of this job is, in my terms, "a bunch of crap"

i asked myself one question; " do i see this place getting any better with their policies?" and my answer was no.

the balloon has deflated, i have no motivation to continue. i need to trust my gut feelings more often.


Sunday, June 3, 2012

06-03-2012 Far Too Long

Day ???

It's been far too long since my last post, but you know how life is: $#!+ happens.

Work: i see the end in site for my scrap hauling days. i've been given notice that i'm moving back to shipping on 3rd shift at the end of this week. i feel more relaxed about things, and i know that this time will be different. no screw ups, no anxiety, moving forward with positivity. if not, and it doesn't work out, so be it. i've made some interesting companions within the last 6 months, and i'm looking forward to the next phase.

Family: i was able to see another cousin married. i was glad i was able to spend time at both the wedding and the reception. it was good to spend time with people i rarely see. i was a good time, and i wish the newlyweds the very best. I'm also planning the AnCon trip for my daughter and I. it's coming up in 2 and 1/2 weeks. getting excited, and i hope nothing gets in the way of all the fun to be had.

Recreation: A while back, i tentative agreed with Hex Games to run another installment of Qags-in-a-Bag at Gencon 2012. i was given one of the last spots available; a Saturday primetime spot from 8pm to 12am. Ok, this works for me, sort of. i figure what the hell. if it runs, great, if not, not a real problem, right? well, apparently when the events became live for people to buy tickets, my event sold out within the first three hours of availability. whoa! that's crazy, that's similar to having a concert sell-out within the first 20 minutes. incredible! i'm very excited about this, and this means that this has become a serious priority. i can't cancel it and it must be completed. i've gotta bring my a+ game for this, and try to top my previous year's spectacular outing.

nothing else to report, move along, nothing to see here.