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Saturday, December 31, 2011

12-31-2011 Too-da-loo 2011!

Day 587

it's nice to come back to this blog from time to time and reflect on all that has happened this year.

back in january, i predicted to myself that this year was going to be a great year and that i was going to try and make this year one of the upswing years to build momentum to go into 2012.

i never could have predicted how this year went, and the resting point that i find myself at the end of the year. WOW what a ride!

some of the highlight from 2011: and so begins my year in review

1) Knome of the year 2010/ Official Publication: to be able to justify and give validity to my writing skills this year was a phenomenal experience, and i look forward to more writing in the new year. still need to work on my second draft of my stand alone project, which i have drive to do again. more importantly, i am proud to personally know the people at Hex Games. they are quality people and i am happy to know them. thanks guys.

2) the Death(s) of My PS3: my 60 GB chrome monster didn't make it through the first weeks of this year, neither did its replacement for that matter. but i will say the transition of the slim model has gone well, and i was able to pick up where i left off. hey, i'm a gamer geek, deal with it!

3) Zombie Movie experiment: i tried to watch 30 zombie movies in 30 days. didn't really work out for me, since i called it quits after ten days. maybe another shot during zombie month in april?

4) working out: i had some great results this year with EA Sports Active 2, and i find myself 15 pounds lighter at the end of the year. this is a great accomplishment for me, and i hope to carry this into the new year.

5) the closure of Bax Global: my summer was marred with rumors that ended up to be truths. the closure of Bax, and the end of a chapter in my life. it still pains me, since i spent 14 years of my life there, but then again, i would not be where i am now if it was not for the skill set i learned there. thank you Bax, but i remember a line from a book that i read years ago that came out about the same time i started working there:

"Been There. Done That. Never Again"
-a quote from a ghoul when asked about his years of forced servitude

6) Gencon: i was able to experience the best four days in gaming first hand in indy this past august, and i was able to bring my absolute A+ game to the table. my qags-in-a-bag event was the magnum opus in my repertoire of games, and it stands as a testament to my creativity. heck, it even made it on a podcast, and i'm majorly proud of that accomplishment. i hope to get back there again at some point. i will have to see how the world grows for me in the coming year. also, gencon was the last convention i went to in 2011.. i wish to change that this coming year.

7) the skies fall silent and unemployment: two months on the sidelines. two months of the worst feelings i've ever encountered. as time progressed, more of the joys of life turned cold and rotted in front of me. i now realize how important it is to work, maybe it's a conditioned response, but without proper focus and goals, life sucks real fast, and it leads down dark paths.

8) the new job and opportunity: the transition to my big boy job has been difficult and hard, but it is getting better. my first real paycheck was a mind-blower. i have to hold on to this job. to be a flexible as i can, and to do the best that i can. this could lead to bigger and better things, and can help me reach long term goals.

so there it is in a nutshell. life in 2011 was a rollercoaster, but i can tell you i am better off than i was 12 months ago. though the unknown aspects of next year are scary, i am confident that i will make it out of next year alive and well, and perhaps we can have this discussion next year about how much better 2012 was than 2011.

i wish you a happy new year, and all the best things for you and yours. peace, my dearest friends.

until next year.



  1. Even though you had low notes this year Mark, looks to me like you ended on a high one. Congrats on your accomplishments and Happy New Year!

  2. i think, ultimately, i am in a better place then i was last year, and with the accomplishments and setbacks it really forced me to grow. i have a new openness about me; i can communicate a little better with people i really don't know that well, and politely tell then what i think and it's generally the truth. i still lack a little on the self-worth and general confidence about my workplace, but everyday it's getting better. i've met some great people at this place.

    thanks again for the continued reading and comments. i think trying to keep this journal updated and honest has really helped me deal with things, and i'm glad that you're long for the journey. cheers.


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